After today's test, it would seem that my chances of getting the university I really want are extremely slim. Hoping that what a senior said is completely true - that all the people that get into the university do not think that they deserve to. A veritable disease, as they term it.
Yet, the possibility of me leaving this place might be closer and larger than I had imagined. If what my dad said today comes to fruition, I could definitely be bound for another land.
It would be painful to leave this much past behind and to leave the familiar landscapes, buildings, people. Truly, it is impossible for me to imagine a new life somewhere else, to forge new relationships and let old ones fade. No way can the Internet replace face-to-face conversation or replicate the intrinsic feeling of the physical presence of someone that you love and care for.
But if I do leave, I would want to start anew. To start fresh and forget all the possibilities, those seized and those lost.
Do I want to go? I once mentioned that my head said no, and my heart said yes (to something else of course). Today I know, my heart says yes.
It says no too.
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